I stood there starring the at the reflection of his face yelling at me. I took another drag of cigarette and exhaled slowly.
"This is it, never thought this is how my fairytale ends," My heart whispered.
"So here goes nothing to my everything,"
I have nothing left to lose, so I opt for the little white lie. As I lied on everything he's been wanting to hear, every accusation that he has thrown to me, I could feel the hatred of how much he despised me growing.
"This is it, never thought this is how my fairytale ends," My heart whispered.
"So here goes nothing to my everything,"
I have nothing left to lose, so I opt for the little white lie. As I lied on everything he's been wanting to hear, every accusation that he has thrown to me, I could feel the hatred of how much he despised me growing.
He cried and cursed. I stare blankly, without expression. It’s not that it wasn’t killing me. But one knows when it’s a lost cause. How much further can we go anyway?
“Might as well I play along with his delusion,” my thoughts whispered softly consoling myself of the decision I made.
Although my heart was breaking, I kept reasoning to myself.
Although my heart was breaking, I kept reasoning to myself.
“If I don’t end this, it will keep doing this to him. He will keep coming up with more appalling accusations. This is better, he’ll be happier.”
I watched him walk away from my life. I could see him moving further away, till he is no longer in my vision. That was the last time we saw each other.
I sat there on that stoop, pretending to be strong. Inhaling one cigarette and then another. The floodgate opens, but nothing comes out. It was getting colder and darker but I felt the warmness stealing me over.
I sat there on that stoop, pretending to be strong. Inhaling one cigarette and then another. The floodgate opens, but nothing comes out. It was getting colder and darker but I felt the warmness stealing me over.
I stared out into the street, the image of him leaving me playing in my head over and over again. Like a reminder to myself that it is over. As that is the end to my love story, it was the beginning of my path to self destruction.
